April 7, 2011

I woke up at 7, had some tea, skipped breakfast due to nausea. Took a shower, got dressed, and left for class. Today we went over the second derivate rule for finding concavity, and we got some extra credit work. I may have earned some of it.

After class I had left over’s for lunch, deleted 10 or so people from my yahoo including my ex who I’m pretty sure already deleted me a second time. I wash my hands of her.  The rest were people I either haven’t spoken to in months, or people I likewise suspected of having deleted me. Honestly, is it so much to ask that people say something before dropping off the face of the earth? I mean if I was planning to abandon the internet, (unthinkable given all my long time friends and the importance of it) I would at least say good bye or ask that someone else do so. As a matter of fact I did so in all the forums I have left up to this point. Of course I’ve never abandoned a friend; however I’ve had several abandon me, their loss and someone else’s gain. To the subject of relationships specifically, considering how often I get hit on, someone is bound to fit my standards sooner or later.

After that I began studying, panicking, then finally abandoning my goal of taking test number 4 in calculus, my amazingly understanding and merciful professor agreed to meet with me tomorrow to talk about an extension. I really felt awful today, I suffered from all my normal stomach ailments and a fairly profound migraine. It’s a very good thing I have a high tolerance for pain or this might become a liability.

However I did make a few new friends, and I have every reason to expect them to be far more reliable than all the traitors I removed. Also had some fun debates, mostly on the subject of Islam, and amusingly on both sides of the issue. Ie defending it from attack and attacking its defenders, this time however it was along the more traditional lines of, Muslim Islamic apologist and non Muslim islamoskeptic. I might express some degree of distain at constantly finding myself; ex catholic anti theist, talking about a religion, but given current geopolitics it’s hardly surprising. There isn’t a global movement to establish theocratic Zoroastrianism, nor is there a simultaneous attempt by Zoroastrians to overthrow their corrupt autocratic regimes, (except maybe in Iran in concert with secular Muslims) nor is there an effort to ban and demonize Zoroastrians in America, (the toothless inbred hicks likely don’t know what Zoroastrianism is nor have ever heard the word used before.)

For dinner I had steak, rice, and broccoli, which was quite good. No desert, lots of water, ect, ect. I also made myself a crude latte earlier with left over espresso, sugar, vanilla extract, and milk, as a study aid. My mother also asked me for yet another loan, she now owes me 80 dollars. I consented only under two conditions, one that it was for her friends in Italy, and two that it would be the last time I lent her anything until I get paid back. She claims I will be paid back on the 20^th, 8 days before my birthday… in which I will turn 22… not 42… regardless of what some people think.

I spent the evening conversing with a dear friend; I fell asleep late at around 1 am.